“You see this glass?” asks Achaan Chaa, the Thai meditation master. “For me this glass is already broken. I enjoy it; I drink out of it. It holds my water admirably, sometimes even reflecting the sun in beautiful patterns. If I should tap it, it has a lovely ring to it. But when I put this glass on the shelf and the wind knocks it over or my elbow brushes it off the table and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ When I understand that the glass is already broken, every moment with it is precious.”

- Mark Epstein 
Thoughts Without a Thinker

I guess it’s good to cover all your bases but asking for prayer because you’re a little nervous on a test seems childish. Here’s a radical idea, maybe if you just study more then you’d be less nervous and get better grades. I know that might be a little mind-blowing for some people but hey there are studies that back me up.

If you have the great fortune to live till you’re 100, then you will have only spent 873,600 hours on this earth. 218,400 of them will be spent sleeping. 174,720 will be spent watching T.V. You will spend 20,000 hours cleaning yourself, 30,000 driving, and 80,000 working for money. How much time will you spend on others? How much will be spent in fear or in hate or in loneliness? How much will be spent in love? How long will you pause to smell the roses or to count your blessings? I shudder to think of all the rivers of blood that were shed so that someone could have control for a fraction of a lifetime. What if we could all move past our differences, which are so few, so that the little amount of time spent alive would have been lived to it’s fullest and happiest extent. Why must we spend so much precious time building ever higher walls around our hearts and our minds.

The achieving of objective goals is less satisfying that having subjective goals

One little girl, bring me
Light from where I thought it was dark
Be the spark that has a chance to
Light the candle
Love, that I can handle

For I don’t know how long
I’ve settled in to doing wrong
And as the wind fills the sail
Came the thought to hurt myself

We mean more to each other than we’ll ever know

I really just want to travel everywhere. Can that be a job lol. I just don’t see myself doing a 9-5 for 40 years hoping that someone will throw me a bonus now and again.

She had that weathered look about her Of memories unwanted Her eyes gave you the sense of a mountain of decisions made poorly She looked as if she would snap off at the slightest breeze and just fly away into the clear blue sky Concerned about uncontrollable, unknowable things At the same time she was cursing the fates, wanting to give up and holding on for her very survival But it all only lasted for a brief moment before she quickly put back on her mask and glanced around to see if anyone had noticed the other side of the coin.